Ok I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep because I know that my night won't be long. Carolina is not feeling well so I'm sure she won't sleep long, and Treyton is sick also and I'm sure I'll be up with him as well. But I can't get a few things out of my head so I wanted to get them down.
Sometimes as women we tend to judge ourselves against those around us. We think I don't do it as well as so and so. If my house could only be as clean as my neighbors, or I wish I was as thin as that lady in my ward. We need to quit doing that. I was talking to my sister-in-law Angie today and we decided that we as women are all busy and we are all doing the very best that we can in our current situation. And so we need to quit judging ourselves and judging others too harshly.
I worry about being the mother of 4 children. I worry if I am giving each one of them the love, attention and time that they each need as individuals. I don't want to mess this up, it is the most important job that I have been given. I love the women around me and I am so thankful to have good examples of motherhood.
I am thankful for a good Mom who taught me, and hopefully I can be at least partly as good to my children as she is to me. And I am thankful that she is such a good grandma to my children.
I am thankful to a good Mother in law that raised a good Man so that I can have a good husband and father for my children.
I am thankful to wonderful sisters and sister-in-laws that love me unconditionally and are also little mother's to my children.
I am thankful to good friends and ward members that show me good examples of Motherhood and that help me want to be better.
I need to be grateful for my own situation in life. I would not want to walk in anyone elses shoes, I will keep my own problems. All I have to do is look around and it makes me grateful for what I have.